Hi all, Just journalling, it helps me release the dark ink inside me.
W responded she didn't want to share the driving, her ego is sore pissed off at my obtaining so much time with S. (proving her wrong). I live 10 km from W. Which means that at every visit, I have to drive at least 40 kms. Driving time is therefore 4 times 20 minutes, ie one hour and 20 minutes. There are three visits a week, and this schedule is set until end of June, that is another 4 months. A quick math shows more than 2000 kms, hours of driving and many $ of gas. I'm wondering if it's worth going to court again for that? Or just shut up and receive one more stick smack in the mouth? I think that any judge will say half driving each, because really there's no reason for all the burden to be on me...
Young Bruce has adapted well. We went ice skating today, not that he stands on his own skates, but we had a great time. I hold him, and he wriggles his legs on the ice and laughs because the feet don't have grip...
Lately I have been tempted to leave everything and go far, to South Africa or Australia. Take off my wedding band, start afresh, pretend none of this happened. Maybe in ten years, I'll get in touch, S will understand: there was nothing more I could've done, W was too hard on me, all her family is against me, I'm not on my turf, not able to proceed anymore, I gave up.
I don't know, seemed a crazy idea in the beginning, but I'm more and more attracted to it. I could be hired easily, there's demand, sell my things here, only take a plane trip, and in three months all this would be a far away nightmare, I'd be smiling again in the sun.
Or give it 6 more months, just enough for the summer to pass by, and see if W is still as nasty, then decide.
Just ideas, just ideas...
Me:34 ; W:28 Son: almost 2. Married : 14 March 2009 DBomb : 18 June 2012 Separated since Jan 2012 (different countries) Same country and city since July 2012
