Hello there. You were married for a long time and you may still be slightly depressed or even more than that. Are you getting enough exercise, sunshine, sleep, and good nutrition? Try to get outside in the sun.
I was married for about the same time as you and just devasted by being left for a much younger woman. I was not even close to being better at the three year mark. By then I was on antidepressants so I could just stop crying every day and that was after getting better on my own with the help of a clinical therapist!
Being at loose ends makes sense when you are in a fallow period. Making a new life is really hard. Maybe try to make one plan for the future a week. Somewhere to go out of the house besides work. I struggle with this as well and find a gym is good.
One other thing, I thought I should be ready to meet someone new after three + years but was not, easy pickings for someone who could take advantage of me. Get strong and healthy. Wonder
