Thanks for the visit and the support! I was kinda worried about you.
"is it too much to ask for the nightmare to end" is a phrase I found all to familiar from my own darkest moments. No matter what is going on nothing should be that dark.
Please don't beat yourself up about your Sex Starved history. Nobody ever means to do it on purpose. Its an uncomfortable topic that nobody wants to talk about. Plus our culture sets women in particular up for failure. We repeatedly tell our girls not to be sexual until marriage, then the day after marriage we tell them to be very sexual. WTF? No road map, no instruction. Just thou shalt not, then thou shall, frequently and with great enthusiasm.
I read your story a bit last night and today. I am so very sorry you have to go through this. It is such a terrible thing to go through, but with younger kiddo's, it takes a woman of rare strength to survive and grow as you have.
One thing I've noticed as I've read your story is how much you've grown in wisdom, insight and strength.
Perhaps your marriage has come to an end, who knows. But I really believe that the way you have carried yourself through this has produced a deep, interesting, and steadfast woman that any man, your husband or another, would be blessed to be with.
