just journaling and have to say - i think i "feed" off the positive vibes and messages of possible hope i get in this forum. maybe a little addiction at the moment. it's grim enough in "reallife" - where society & everyone (it seems almost) demands action and cure and so forth - immediately. patience and "hang in there" are in short supply.
it may be foolhearty to even try dbing- don't know til one tries, do we? like the lottery- could be a winner - could be good money after bad. problem is- ya gotta be in it to win it. - so we try it -
we have to try- it's all i can come up with in life. as to why i bother and why i subject myself to this crappola (just like the darn book says - we ask ourselves why we endure it - alot of the time)
i guess we're just unwilling to let go of the notion in life of "possible miracles" or possible success. for bad or good-
oh well- just throwing it out there- got enough sleep last nite- so got that going for me. h had biopsy from tongue yesterday- glad i'm not petty enough to actually wish this guy ill.
his dad has two biopsies (alot more serious) next week - with all this ill health around and cancer scares - i can't get past feeling grateful to be alive and healthy and sane. (as usual) my matra -
well, that and "love will find you". quite like it. there was something else- i can't think of it rite now- words to live by that fell in my lap from unexpected source.
i hope my cup stays half full - no matter what the future holds. just when i think i can't stand it one bit more (yesterday) i manage to stay mum the whole day and "not go there" and not fight, talk, etc. just STFU AND then get to feel that little bit of proud of my self control.
does it accomplish anything - who knows? is it a worthy pursuit- who knows? oh well- just sayin.
anyone who reads this- i wish you a great day.
xxo (oh yeah- it was from another flea market person i've befriended (my new bff)_ who is a real interesting person- told me last weekend "be open to the universe" - which i also think is a worthy sentiment to keep in forefront of mind- so here's me - finding wisdom at the flea. i always tell people sooner or later you can find ANYTHING at the flea market - who would have thought "wisdom".??
