Finally getting it after three months...

[jp787]

Sparton, Tallula, VeryGrateful,adinva, SM34 and littleGTO thank you for your encouragement. Thank you for listening and talking me up. I know I sound like a little baby whining that life isn't fair, but I made a large part of this mess, so I need to man up and do what you all say.

Yes it's hard, the thing is everyone on these boards knows exactly how you're feeling right now.

I know and I need to stop allowing myself to sit in self pity.

There is always hope. There is hope that you will become a better person. There is hope you will stop obsessing over your W and start obsessing over you and start the work on you.

Yes I need this so much. I am not going to get anything accomplished focusing on my W so much

The hardest thing to get to sink in but it's awesome when it does is the help you get here isn't designed solely to save your M or convince your S to come running back and love us again. It's designed to help us become better people. People we know we can become. People only a fool would leave. If you can do that there is hope.

Again I need to find a way to stop obsessing over W

Who do you want to be?

A kind, happy, relaxed, loving person. Ha I want to be the kind of person my W was (hopefully still is)

What changes are you in process of making?

Starting with a new therapist, Reading and reading...

What layers of you are being pulled away?

Nothing yet, feel like my sanity is being pulled away.

What GALing are you doing? This is VERY important if for nothing else then to get your mind centered again.

Going to the gym, spending time with daughters and trying to maintain and clean up house.

Stay strong buddy and start worrying about you! Let's get to work

Thank you for being sportive and uplifting, I need this right now!