I'm so sorry, and I have nothing much more to say other than, grief does not just go away. It hurts a lot and it comes and goes.
I like Acc's suggestions because I believe that the more we try to keep ourselves controlled the closer to out of control we become.
Just this week received some lovely news and I wanted to share it with H...so I cried, really hard and didn't try and control it, didn't tell myself it was silly, didn't tell myself I wasn't strong.
I had to surrender and accept.
And then it was over.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss