A New Beginning - after 2 years...

[needgrace]

Hi KG,

i really love your honesty and your ability to take responsibility. it has been a real example to me and has helped me in the last few weeks to take a look at some of my own stuff... thank you.

BUT...

i think that your recent issues w/ H do not, in any way, mean that you have not grown or detached or that you are a fraud.. not at all.. (Btw, i felt the same after my most recent interaction w/ my W)

My therapist explained it to me like this... that there is a part of me that is still hurt and angry but that is not all of me.. and for some reason that part of me needed to come out that day... that is the place for us to understand, build awareness and grow so that we can deal with those parts of ourselves away from our spouses..

but there are other parts of me and of you too.... the parts that got you through the pain of the past two months without striking out...the strength that enabled you to detach and to trust yourself... the courage to face the struggles you are having with the financial side of the D... the love you give to your Ds...the wisdom you share with others here... the kindness i have personally seen and felt... those are the parts of yourself that i hope you don't forget or discount in the midst of facing one part...

my therapist calls it the little girl within me, that is scared and needs to tantrum now and again... and forgets to trust that the adult me, the strong, courageous parts inside me, can cope and handle all of this... i realized that i was trying to be too strong and had not given enough voice to the hurt, so it came out when i did not want it too. i wonder if the same is true for you.

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