I think you missed what you had. But, that's just it..."had." People come in our lives for a reason, season, or lifetime and the gifts your ex gave you will be with you for the rest of your life. But, now it's time to start living your life...for YOU.
What about some life coaching or guidance? I've taken lots of seminars and classes that have helped me get moving on to my new life. You're about a year behind me in terms of time frame of events. I think you're doing just fine emotionally. There is no time frame as each of us moves through the stages of grief and different speeds. Be gentle and kind with yourself. You've suffered extensive trauma and at our age, with all the hormonal stuff also going on, it could be a mix of things.
I would also suggest getting bloodwork done for your levels of Seratonin, etc. (kml might be better help here). The shock of the bomb sent me into perimenopause and I needed a bunch of herbs and supplements to climb out of that pit. They will also check/ask about your libido.
Hang in there, every day is another victory!
Me 55 H 49 Married 21 years No kids bomb 5/09 filed 7/09 divorced and moving forward 5/10
