Stuck

[punkin]

I haven't posted in a very long time, although I've checked in to see what was up from time to time.

I made the move from MLC because I didn't feel it was the right forum for me any longer. I'm divorced now, and his MLC is no longer my problem. Right?

I'm divorced. That MY problem.

I'm employed. Fairly secure financially. Have loving friends and family. Don't really mind being alone, as I have been for long periods all through my former marriage. (Army wife)I just feel at loose ends. For one thing, I still think of my X as my H. Any stray thought or attraction to another man is instantly buzzed by my fidelity nerve. Even though that last thing I owe the SOB is fidelity. It's been 3 years now since the bomb dropped, and I think I should be further along emotionally than I am now. Yes, I tell myself that there is no emotional calender with a red ring around the day it's all better. But three years? Really? I'm wondering if I don't need kick started. No. I don't date. I do not feel the slightest compulsion to do so. But I miss something. I just can't seem to describe it. Even when I try to talk to God about it, I can't seem to put it into words. Any thoughts out there?