Grr, I am an oldtimer and remember when you first came here.
I see you are still struggling. I am so sorry.
I know that all of this is so very difficult to wrap your mind around. It goes against everything you think you knew.
The thing is that it is impossible for us to really understand because we are not in a Midlife Crisis, thank goodness.
They feel something is wrong. They cannot figure it out. And so, they lash out at the person closest to them, thinking, if I just get rid of them, then I'll be happy. And when that doesnt work, they try something else.
All with the hope of fixing what's wrong. It is not until or unless they look inside and realize it is them will they ever find peace.
Sometimes we get stuck on trying to understand. We feel if we can just understand we can fix it. But really, that isnt so.
This is a journey they were meant to go on. There is nothing anyone can do to rush it or fix it.
So, really, it is when we accept that we do not understand it, we did not cause it and there isnt anything we can do to change it that we find peace.
Grr, I know that you cannot fathom a father doing this to his child. But he has to justify it in his mind that it is going to be ok. He is too broken to be able to handle that its not right now.
The sooner you can accept what is for right now, the better for you.
Leave him to his path. You continue to walk yours.
Make a life for you and your son and show him how to navigate through life's turmoil with strength and courage.
