Is this MLC or WAS? Don't know what to do...

[BrightFuture]

Well, I was not posting for a while. There was long silence in my sitch. Last time I spoke with my H was about one month ago, when I called him to wish him happy birthday. There was no communication since then. I’ve been having some good days and some bad days. Some days I think that it is done and need to start the official paperwork. But sometimes I think that I’m having a bad dream and when I wake up everything will be back to normal. I’m kind of in a frozen state right now. It is hard to make myself to complete even the simplest tasks. I just have no motivation to do anything. My GAL is sporadic. I just don’t have any energy.

This morning I had a very bad migraine. My head was in a fog. The phone rang I saw my H’s number. I contemplated for a second whether to pick it up, since I was not feeling good. I picked it up and tried to compose myself as much as I could. We had a short conversation. He told me that he was trying to renew his trusted traveler pass and they denied it to him, since he didn’t have enough documentation. He said that he has another interview in April and he will need to collect the documents eventually. He asked me if I already did taxes. I said no, and he asked if I needed help. I said no. He asked me if everything was going ok, and I said yes, I’m doing good. Then he asked if we (my son and his friends) are coming next weekend for the event that is going on at our vacation place. I said we are. He told me that he is making the arrangements to stay somewhere else, so I and my son with friends could stay in our condo. I thanked him for that. He asked me if I’m bringing our dog, and told me that I will need to bring some food for him. I asked him if he needs me to bring anything and he named a couple of items that he needs. He also told me that he used our debit card and gave me a couple of charges, so I could record them in the check book. He also asked which account he could use to withdraw some cash. At the end he said “see you next week”. It sounded just like in old times, normal conversation…

After we finished, I felt sad. I’m still in a limbo. There is no conversation about D or even about splitting the accounts, expenses, business, credit cards, etc. He hasn’t moved his stuff out of the house here. He is living in our vacation place condo. He hasn’t moved my stuff out of the vacation home. He is not working, and probably will not have a job until April or May (his job is seasonal.) It seems that he is pretty happy where he is at the moment. That was his plan from the beginning – to have everything joint, no D for now, and just to be friends.

I still don’t know what to do…