It's good to be here

[Mileus]

After rereading my last post, I think I need to work more on detaching. It's hard, she only moved out 2 weeks ago. My new goal, in addition to my others, is to only speak about the kids. I know that's what I should have been doing, and some days I have, but I want to go 24 hours without a call or text.

Then, the same goal tomorrow and the next day for a week. Then my goal will be to do it for a week. Etc.

I don't know why it's so hard to let go. I should be furious. Anyway, I texted her the kids schedule this morning in case she wanted to visit and wished her a good day. I realized as soon as I sent it that it is probably pursuing. That's not why I sent it. I won't be here today, going out after work, and I thought it would be a good day to come up, but from now on, if she wants to know she'll have to ask.

Emotionally, I feel better today. I cried again because my oldest son said he is thinking about moving out and I'm not sure he's ready. That never would have happened before this, so there's still some hurt, but I feel better. I told him that he is welcome to stay, I'm glad he's home, and I hope he waits until he finishes his coursework. He's just been stressed since she left.