Hey Intact, my thoughts and prayers are with you and am sending some good energy your way
The first few months sukked.... No really, they always do. The only thing that kept me going were my kids, my GAL, my friends. I realize this is even harder with the loss of your dad, but that is the very reason, you need to concentrate only on you at this point. You only have a limited amount of energy. Use it wisely. Save yourself first...everyone else comes after.
Someone wrote that when there is trouble on an airplane, you put your mask on first. Dude, you got trouble on your flight, put the mask on.
