Need to let go

[littleGTO]

Thanks again, ruby, labug, PoN and Tori! You guys are the best!

Please don't give up on me b/c I am a bit s-l-o-w at some of this. It's not b/c I don't understand it. It's b/c I'm really trying hard to undo years of bad habits/ practiced strategies.

I am very much an emotional person. I am working on processing my emotions before reacting to them. I am doing better.

Yeah, Tori!!!! I do hope we can meet in person! I love tennis, but haven't played in a long time, so I hope I don't let my partners down on Saturday.

PoN, I DID NOT put my brother up to this at all! In fact I was quite shocked that he sent this. It has been since December that I talked to him but I did talk to my mom recently about H wanting to divide up finances b/c I knew she would be a good resource to make sure I protect myself and my boys.

My B got pi$$ed that H wanted to do this as he sees this as a big step to the end (and I wonder the same), and he thinks H is stringing me along (why doesn't he end it, he thinks).

I will talk to him about not interferring any more. I realized what a set-back this could be.

You all are right about me doing too much mind-reading. I realize this is not helpful or productive to focusing on myself and detaching.

ruby, I will take your advice about how to respond about my Sat night when H asks! Thanks!

On another note---The baby kittens are ready for adoption!! The boys and I may go to visit them tomorrow and pick one out, then go back on Saturday to take her home (as I don't want to get a kitten on a weeknight only to abandon her for the entire next two days!) Any name suggestions?? Looking for a girl's!

Oh, and taking the day off of work to visit my FIL and my SIL (as my FIL had brain surgery on Friday last week but is now home recovering). My SIL is waiting for results from various tests to see what kind of chemo she will receive in a couple of weeks.
I feel great to be able to spend a little time w them alone tomorrow. I have gotten a lot closer to both of them since my MIL was sick/passed away last summer.

I know that they will always be very important people in my life, no matter what happens to my M.