Every now and again I need to remind myself that there is not such thing as linear progress in this process. The net effect of everything is a LOT of improvement....I mean a LOT relative to bomb date....but still a ways to go.
XW and I met up for dinner tonight to exchange the boy -- her idea. She also asked to do the camping trip she pulled the plug on this weekend. She is also being very supportive with a small (stressful but not life-threatening) personal issue I am dealing with recently.
She had a tough few days, I suppose. The other night I called her via FaceTime on my iPhone so she could talk to/see our little guy. She talked for about 5-10 minutes and then started to tear up and said she had to go....that sometimes seeing him makes it harder. She later texted that she has a hard time being without him still and seeing him via phone is sometime tough.
The next day she texted me asking about him. Said she had a rough day....she commented that she "feels like a drifter". I believe that is in reference to how she is living these days....not that it is BAD, but it is a notable step back from where she was. She has often told me that she is at a place that feels like (if not worse than) being right out of college.
I was telling a close friend about this, and she said that "she is exactly where she needs to be - there are still things she needs to experience in this". That actually made a lot of sense to me....it certainly would not have 18 months ago.
Anyhooo...just checking in. Things are still moving along - slowly, and in a non-linear fashion, but moving nonetheless.
