Once a muse...

[SugarBaby31]

Goals:
1) Enjoy my 2 young children and be the best possible mommy I can be.
2) Spend more time loving my family and friends.
3) Find balance between being a single mom, PT business owner, and possibly student--get organized with schedules.
4) Get more plugged in with my church and discover who God created me to be.
5) Continue working out 2-3 times a week.
6) Decorate my home--H bought us our dream home 2 weeks prior to separation.

M problems:
1) I think like most marriages, I felt unappreciated and he felt overwhelmed. He traveled and worked A LOT, while I handled all of the parenting, home and business responsibilities. I would express my frustrations with our lop-sided situation and he would receive it as I'm being unsupportive of his career. We weren't hearing each others needs or meeting them.
2) He handled the frustrations by seeking validation and attention outside of our marriage. In each instance when I learned of the EAs, I never truly forgave since trust wasn't being rebuilt--there was no transparency or change in behavior. I was riddled with suspicion and anger, arguing more and more with him.
3) In the past year, I observed changes in his peers. Our friends used to be married couples, w/ kids, mostly Christian. He started to spend more time with single men that had completely different responsibilities and beliefs.
4) Without sharing too much info, H was on a televised talent competition this past year. Following it, the fame he received changed the once grounded man I knew. His priorities shifted away from God and work.