Thank you everyone for the support and words of encouragement. It is nice to know that I am not alone.
I am really trying my best to keep my words to myself and look at this as a "temporary" stage of his transformation. It is just so bloody hard.
I am encouraged that the lease he signed is only for 3 months. I did find it hilarious when he started to complain to me that the couch in the apartment isn't really his style. Good! I don't want him to be comfortable or happy in this apartment.
Right now my plan is to actually help him pack his clothes when he moves. I will fall apart afterwards.
I am implementing the actions, suggestions, etc. that I am learning with the marriage course. I appreciate that it gives me something tangible to do towards saving my marriage versus talking about it with a counselor. I always left the sessions thinking "Okay, we talked a lot but what can I DO?".
I am also keeping up my mnatra prayer - Wisdom, Strength, Patience and Serenity. God's wisdom to help me know what to say and not to say. God's strength to help me through the day, Patience to help me keep in mind that this is "temporary". Serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
Take care all and I hope your situations are improving.
