Still confused...about everything.

[BRNR]

25-First I am going to say it, because i know you will reply with it....keep a PMA....but here it goes.

I am just so annoyed and angry over this sitch, that I don't see the light that shows we get back together.

On one hand, I am thinking, what is wrong with me, this is the man that I love. Why won't I fight and endure this for him and our love and what a great future we could have together.
On the other hand, I am thinking, girl, snap out of it, this is your new reality. The love and marriage you once had is gone, you are even losing the love you had that will never return, and you need to move on.

I will tell you that my mind, body and spirit are leaning towards the latter.

And yes, he did leave our kids as much as the marriage, I am hurt, they are hurt, and for someone who says he cares about all that, he has a funny way of showing it. I thought I could be strong, but I don't know that I can take much more of this...

25, as you said in a prior post, this can't go on for much longer. I want to, but I don't know how to get my heart there at the moment.