I hate those nights when your mind just won't stop. H has D - worked out, showered, doing laundry, etc but everything just keeps racing. Last week was the 6th year anniversary of when H and I first met back up, hadn't seen each other since high school.
Yes, I'm working on things. And H and I have had better conversation etc since yesterdays discussions. I try to keep hope that we can be better and stronger if we can just make it thru this - but I'm only nearly 4 months in - it's going to take way longer.
I am working on bettering myself, working on the lists above, GAL - but the thoughts won't stop. What if I don't get to spend every Christmas morning with D, those types of things. What if I never get the opportunity to have another baby. What if's suck.
