Tad, some great advice and suggestions. And questions too.
I already know the why now to 25's question. But the thing is, it's ok to be angry. It's healthy. It's needed and long overdue. And when it passes, you need to move on. Part of the anger is, as 25 put it, the fear. Overcome that fear, Tad. Answer the questions of "what happens if..? " If not here, then to yourself. Then test those answers. I assure you, it is not worth being afraid of.
As I told you before, you need to be the one to walk away. When you realize that and it sinks in, you'll be a happier man. And your sons will thank you for it.
Let the rest go, Tad. Face the fears. Answer the hard questions and let the answers be what they are. Then deal with them.
Life's dangerous Tad. You won't get out alive. Live like it won't be long till you figure that out and let the rest go.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."