I've officially been DB for 2 weeks and I'm slowly but surely seeing changes in the right direction. Because of my faith, I feel like I have an edge in understanding what the DR is telling me to do--I have to experience a "renewing of the mind" and be consistent.
On Saturday, H visited the kids and had the audacity to have the OW drop him off and pick him up at MY house. He claims she is just a friend but I know that is not the truth. The old JPnL would be outraged and confronted him, but this was the time to shine and act "as if" I had no clue and be pleasant, upbeat, and funny. During the visit, I was tending to my things around the house while he played with the kids in the playroom. Every so often, he would come and linger in the kitchen striking up conversation. I saw glimpses of the old H, such a contrast to the man that was so cold and distant the last time I saw him. After he left, I texted him and thanked him for hanging with the kids. Our exchanges were funny and upbeat!
GAL, detaching and finding inspiration has really given me the confidence I need to be the real JPnL...the attractive, independent, beautiful woman I am. I also see the physical distance working to my advantage because I truly can detach and be my own person. I hope I can keep it up!
Me 33 / H 30 T 10 / M 9 S 3 / D Infant Bomb 11.22.12 / Moved 11.29.12
