Still confused...about everything.

[BRNR]

Having a moment...I am listening to music and just heard a song that hit home...man leaving home so he could get his "needs and desires" met by another woman...Ughh! I did change the station....

But it is things like this that I think about and wonder why I would take him back even if he wanted to come back....I often wonder if I would be compared to OW and if that would leave him "dis-satisfied", especially since he told me "she was a freak and let me do what I wanted"...

This thought is almost abusive to me...and the fact that I feel like I am losing my love for him bit by bit doesn't help either...

I am so disgusted right now....