Things on the whole are better, but it should be taken with a grain of salt. The bad season is coming and I'm trying to get off my antidepressants. It was my idea, not my counselors, but they don't think it's a bad idea per se. In my mind, the spring is a trigger. A huge trigger. And I would rather go through this spring and deal with the bullsh!t without drugs, than go through this spring with drugs and think "oh everything is fine!" and then next spring (without drugs) be hit with a ton of bricks. I'd rather have one more potentially painful spring than think I'm better and not be... if that makes sense.
It's almost been 2 years. Actually it was this Monday 2 years ago that I got the bomb. It was the 28th then.
The day after the Oscars.
I'm struggling.
I expected to be struggling so at least it's not caught me off guard. I don't know who to tell that I'm struggling. I probably should include some people in my circle to be there for me through this. The next few months will most likely be awful.
