Over the weekend, I learned that H went to OW's family reunion last year. He told me because I had seen a pair of swim shorts that I didn't recognize. He said that he'd tell me about it when I was ready. I told him I was fine and to just tell me. He told me that she asked him to go and he said yes. I only asked how he was introduced and he said his name and nothing else. I said ok and dropped it. I didn't want to share what was going on in my head. That some folks in her family would automatically figure that they were together.
We've talked a little about the future but nothing specific about out R or M. I want him to open up but I know I have to wait for him to be ready.
What little we've talked about, he's added comments like: "someone that we won't name, but not who your thinking" or "don't take this the wrong way".
For example, we were talking about the cable bill and he mentioned that he did some checking around "for someone...". I told him that he didn't even need to mention "for someone..." and to just say, I did some checking around.
I just have so smh becuase I feel as if we're stagnant for most of the time but then I see the small progress.
Last night, he mentioned that he knew he shouldn't have moved back in. This was because his mom was pushing his hot buttons. It's so hard to deal with his dislike for the living arrangements with our R issues. Especially since they're intertwined.
I'm looking forward to when comments like "when I get my tax refund, I can ..." turns into "when we get our tax refund, we can ..."
Argh! Tessa
Me39 H35 M8 T14 Early 5/12 H FB post re: his love for me. End 5/12 H done trying, writes "Dear John" letter 6/12 Wants D, calls ATTY, no file 1/13 Loves me, wants to try, moves home 3/13 Changes mind
