He helped remind me that H has always had the need to isolate himself and go into projects were nobody else was welcome. I was so busy with kids, homeschooling, house work, and all that momma stuff, that I was almost ok with his solitude.
your son is such a smart guy- sometimes i find myself trying to be realistic and objective and REMEMBER HONESTLY if everything ws absolutely rosey in teh garden before h goes nuts.
your son- he's doing just that. My h also ALWAYS compartmentalized- i've said before and will say again (probably manyu manay times) like you i was just busy and sooo sure of this guy- IT WAS SOOOOOO easy to accept and put good spin on allllll his quirks - which now- in retrospect and tainted as they are with my new knowledge of him- seem IMPOSSIBLE to stomach sometimes. and even when i'm crucifying him - sometimes i can see that this exact same sitch three years ago would not have affected me one wayor the othr- ws part of life (becaue we loved each other and in the end (dopey me)it would all right itself)
AND NOW- i find my faith flagging and stumbling like crazy. what the?????
your post is making me blubber. i feel relieved... i am soooo far away from that - an h that talks from the heart- i am so happy for you to just have this moment of connection - to see some glimmer - i hope it continues for you- i know we expect no miracles and we step lightly- i will continue my good vibes and prayers for you-
i'm going to go away and be busy and hopefully not think. it's been a hair raising day or so with your sitch- i need a peice of chocolate to destress - (any excuse - what? me self-indulgent??? i just ate the darn oatmeal- i shoudl ge t a treat!
hang in there and fingers crossed.
xxoo ((( ))) i'm so glad he called- a ray of hope out there in the universe???? i'm open to it....
