Righting my Marital ship; 1st stop: Retrouvaille

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Thank you for the support ladies. It is greatly appreciated.

We got back from our trip Saturday evening. It turned out to be fantastic and my kids had a blast. It was a great time to hit the parks.

25, to answer a couple of your questions. My W is not seeing an IC or taking any medication. As far as I know, she doesn't intend to.

The custodial plan will be 50/50. Our kids will alternate weeks between us. She knows that I will not settle for anything less.

Would I do anything differently? Absolutely. I will NOT allow fear to be my guide like I did the first time around. That was a lesson learned the hard way. I lost valuable time with my kids.

When my W and I agreed to reconcile, I told her that she will be my priority and I expect to be her priority. Anything less is unacceptable. So here I find myself at the point of deciding to attach actions to my words. Otherwise my words hold no water.

Here are my thoughts. I let my W know that I am done and want to put our M/R behind us. One of two things will happen. I will find myself a single father 6 months after filing or she will realize that she is throwing away a good thing and will take initiative in keeping our family intact. I believe the LRT is my path.

Either option is better than this uncertainty I am living in now. I don't want to live like this and it isn't fair to our kids. Good times.

I am meeting with my Pastor late this week to run my thoughts by him to get his take. Lord knows that I could use some spiritual guidance.

In the meantime, gotta keep living, because life awaits no one.