Need to let go

[labug]

I do feel like I've changed over the past 8 months (since BD). I still have a long way to go though. Some parts of me are missing-like the strong, "gritty" me that was very much a part of who I was.

I'm sure she didn't go far. Call her back.

I don't like that I feel weak and emotionally vulnerable so much. I don't like how I have to constantly question what I'm going to say to H and how I'm going to say it.

Thinking about our words is a way of being we all should have learned as children but most of us didn't. For many of us it's our lack of thinking and poor choice or words that got us here. sigh

So look at this as a master class in self-expression, something that will pay off greatly for the rest of your life. Think how lucky your boys are that they get the benefit of your new communication skills. And they can learn from you.

It's OK if you don't have an answer to tell H that you need time to think and will get back to him.