To be honest I really don't know. I am so confused. Looking back, maybe since I was giving more space it just felt to me like we were farther apart. We had been kissing goodbye on the cheek every morning. Sometimes she would kiss sometimes I would. I stopped this last week because it was so awkward. We both seemed so uncomfortable with the kiss like not knowing if we should or if we/ she wanted to. So I stopped it to try to give more space. Not sure if that was good or bad. Maybe that is also playing into my feelings of being further apart.
I think the questions from Adinva is good. For me at the beginning of the sitch when we didn't have much space I didn't feel close and actually felt much coldness from W. Since the S I go back and forth on how I feel about warmth and reaching out from W. A lot depends on my mood at the time. It is hard to tell for me when relationship with W is that of an acquaintance.
In terms of physical contact with W, I let her initiate that. The only contact is sometimes my W hugs me when she is leaving. I have no expectations for that so when she does do it it is nice.
