Still confused...about everything.

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Awww man...just venting.

I called to talk to my boys this mornign since they were with H all weekend and my S9 didn't want to talk to me. so when he got home a couple of hours ago, we started talking baout it and he said that he didn't want to talk to me because he was with his Dad...I told him that was okay, and that I wasn't trying to interrupt, I just wanted to say love you and say good morning. the conversation got more intense with him saying that he is trying to get Dad to come home and us back together again because he doesn't like this situation of us being split up and him having to spend time with each of us at different times :.(

Man this kid knows how to rip my heart out and make me feel like a horrible person. I told him that I would do everything that I could to make him happy, but even if I tried my hardest I couldn't promise anything...so sad.

Tonight I will cry my eyes out...and really dig deeper for the strength to continue on with trying to get my marriage back. I sometimes forget that they have these grown up feelings too, and probably feel worse than I do...