AZ, welcome to the forum. For inspiration, I would search out Sandi2 and 25yearsmlc who both were at the edge and found their way back. For something more current and still evolving, I would check out Crimson's series of thread posts. He is divorced but there are signs that a reconciliation may be in his future. Nothing guaranteed, but there is hope and the signs are there.
Good luck to you, AZ!
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Every rough spot adds to our emotional constitution. -Barney Fife