Sounds like you are really hurting. I'm sorry to hear that.
You're feelings matter right now. But not to him.
MLC makes the sufferers incapable of dealing with their own feelings, let alone anyone else's. For me, this is one of the more difficult aspects - not being able to look to my H for any sort of comfort or reassurance.
I hope the counseling course helps you.
Post an update when you can.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
