Well it has been a little time that i have come here. That does not mean things are going well. I have been sick with the flu and could not shake it.

However here is the latest and I am just so hurt by what was done. Well valintines day I sent flowers to my W my MIL and my stepdaughter along with a card. I had to send all 3 to my mother in laws house. It ws then that my MIL told my W that there was something there for her. Well 2 things 1 she never came to get the flowers and W never told stepdaughter. The flowers had to be tossed. I talked to my stepdaughter and she was very upset that she was never told. she tells me that she will get to the bottom of this. I am sure she talked to her mom and well im sure it did not go over well...

Now I will say that i did not put any type of love you stuff in W card. I also did it knowing they i will not get anything in return. But it still hurts to know that W just left them there and had to be tossed. That hurt very bad and i am still very upset over it. Even her Mom is very upset at her. I just totaly do not know what is going on with my W and why even now is she still so angry at me. I have not been around. I think she is just so unhappy with her self and what she is doing. I know she is hurting so bad for money. the car payment was late by 23days. I told her that if she ever got in a jam with the car to let me know as it is still in both our names and im the primary.

So i did not sent the text message that i posted here. i talked it over with my coach and came up with a new one that i will send as soon as i get past this flu..

here is the text i will send so any input would be nice.

Hi WAW,
I hope you are doing well !!! I wanted to send this sooner but did not as i have been sick with the flu. well Here it is here now!! I wanted you to know that I do understand how you must have felt when you found out your friends and Family spend time with me. It must have Hurt and made you felt disloyal by them. I get it and I'm sorry you felt that way. I do realize that you have been unhappy for some time now... I think I have a few Ideas as to why..... But i would love to know all the reason you are still so unhappy. So, whenever you feel that you are ready to talk about things feel free to call me. We can do coffee, Brunch, Dinner someplace or whatever is the best for you.....


So after that I will just wait for W to contact me if at all. with the way she is who knows.

Oh one more thing is that now her daughter has moved out and I know from the past this is a big thing for W to deal with. for me I am just getting down and feel like everyone looks at me as if there is something wrong with me. Meaning I Should have moved on by now in there eyes. Why do you keep trying is what they say. I do not want to look like a loser that is out of control. I am not but it is hard sometimes. I feel the longer this drags on the lass chances of any type of a good outcome.