I'm not gonna lie, it's not easy holding myself back from call him right now and reaching out to offer some kind of middle ground. I won't, I think he needs to go through this, and humble himself.

He's been talking to ea all morning, he has yet to realize she is not the one he should be calling.

I have the worst migraine and tears just behind my eyes, that I refuse to draw out for him once again. I'm alone with the dog, so I'm going to put a movie on while making something to eat. I feel like I'm about to fall over, really, my head hurts too much!

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!