Just wanted to journal for a moment, hopefully to knock the thoughts out of my head.
My parent is failing and I am trying very heard to not only keep things together but to ensure that my work and other responsibilities are taken care of before I need to take some time off.
My workplace has been incredibility supportive. But while I am not diminsihing how important to me that is, I cannot help but contrast it with the fact that xSO has not made any attempt at all to see if I am doing OK.
I know in my head not to have expectations of him. But my heart hurts a little to be sooo ignored at this time by him. To try to put it inot "friends" perspective, I do have "friends" which also have not really acknowledged what is happening and I try to put him in that category. But it is a hard thing to do.
The truth is, if this is the "new" him and he stays this insensitive, he is not what I want in a partner. When his father passed away, even from a distance until I could get there, I was with him every step of the way. I do not think he owes me, but then I wonder if I will ever look back at this period without feeling angry. No matter how much I try to concentrate and focus on other things, that abdandonment feeling is there.
