Thanks Bug. I always love that analogy.

I think I have beat myself up because I am mad at myself for getting to this place with myself and because I think I have annoyed H. As that scares me a bit because he doesn't need much to start spewing again and talking about D.

Him being in Dubai with OW has proven to be a big challenge to me in terms of not panicking and not wanting to pursue. So I need to get a grip again.

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home