On another note. I woke up with a life epiphany of sorts regarding my life. I think a lot about the advice that is giving both here on the boards and from the people in my life and while I still don't know what I am going to be in the future, I do know that I want to be happy and enjoy and live life.
I have decided to just live my life as if H is not coming back. After all, just like he has a 50/50 chance of wanting me back I have a 50/50 chance that I will want him back. So, taking some time to explore what I want and need in my life and what the world has to offer. I am starting by accepting that my H is trying to build a friendship and leave it at that. And I am going to treat him no differently than I would another friend.
Call it losing hope, but I feel this will aid me in healing and GAL and having no expectations. I don't believe limbo is healthy....not the actual status, but the feeling.
So, with that said, I have decided to go play pool with him and my boys today. It is a miserable rainy day, and I actually want to play. I know I will have fun...besides, I have never seen my kids in action, so it should be interesting to say the least. I also, have other plans for the rest of the day, doing a little shopping afterwards and some house stuff....my house is a wreck. Lol.
Everyone enjoy the weekend and the day for what it is....make the most of every moment!
BombOctober 2012- OW 11/28/12 -H still denies Separated 11/29/12 Own place 12/12/12 Confessed OW/EA/PA 2/2/13 Oct 2013 - I knew I was done Jan 2014 - Anticipating the rest of my life
