Try not to beat yourself up about these little blips, we are learning a very different way of being. Think about when our babies learn to walk-they fall a lot before they finally get it. We don't castigate them when that happens, we hug them and cheer them on knowing that eventually they will walk.
Here's a hug (( )) and a cheer!
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss