After I submitted this post I was suddenly horrified at putting it up. I'm sure the last thing anybody wants to hear is the perspective of the cheater.
But then I figured maybe it could help both me and someone else.
Thank you in particular for ideas around chemistry. I've been introduce to the concept, but I hadn't connected the withdrawal ideas.
I am really excited by how much our marriage relationship has improved in such a relatively short time. I am lucky all out of proportion to what I deserve. It comes down to the willingness of both of us to work on what we brought to the party.
Veroprado, you have a wonderful but challenging insight.....I DO want to hold only positive images of the OW and keep the negative as my own fault.