first time & need help still

[albamarie]

Nero - i drove to h work tonight, as he works alone, and I told him he has the weekend to get the stuff he wants and move out. He came at me with different stages...first he was angry, walking away, saying he wants nothing.

Then he went into saying he will need half of what he makes...even saying he may not work at all. Next, came his defense about how he can't change back, what do I want, he may find a way out of life then. He went into who will do the dishes, mop the floor, shovel, ect. I said I don't value that as much as I valued him as a person. He said that stuff was important to him. So I said I will do it all.

He finished off by saying what does he do that's so bad it's worth losing all of the above, I said you fill my home with lies, cunningness, disloyalty, and today you spent the day at ea's house never coming home from works his morning. You no longer get to humiliate me, or treat me with such disregard.

My son was having symptoms of an illness and h had his phone off to drink and get high with trash. He felt bad when I told him I couldn't find him but I said not to worry we will learn how to work our way through everything if I have to get on government assistance, that's how much he is not welcome around us as he is.

The screened door is one with a built in windows and a lock w/key, it's locked tight. He get off at 6am and we will see. I guess I'm done! I didn't cry, I didn't waver and I wasn't mean!

He tried to get me food, I said no, he asked If i wanted his soda, I said I don't trust drinking after him, he said he's clean nothing sexual going on. he asked to walk me to my car I said I'm fine, I have to be fine because it has got to be better than being humiliated, and devastated.

I walked away from him and drove the 25mile ride feeling like I did the right thing, no tears. It not him, it's not the man I know, so I just told a a stranger to leave me alone!