Is it humanly possible to drop the rope?

[AntoniaB]

BeingMe you sound exactly like me. It's funny, I actually got to the point a few months ago that I was having such an involved social life outside the home with friends that I actually felt compelled to take a break and spend more time alone (granted alone still usually means at home but I'm emailing or chatting with several people a night via internet or texting). I never thought I'd be seeking out that time in my house and relishing every minute.

I've put a lot of thought and introspection into this and I'm no longer hating myself for "sabotaging" something with him. I think the truth is that I see something with him as too sabotaging to my happiness right now! I feel like my unease the other day was a signal to me that I should not pursue something if my heart isn't in it, especially when my heart is happy in so many other places.