Try to read not only Shirley Glass' book (which is great), but other materials re. infidelity. You developed some very strong feelings towards this OW, along with some real, physical chemical reactions that made it all even more powerful and even addictive. There will surely be not only a grieving process for the loss (emotionally), but a withdrawal phase from the physical symptoms.
Guilting yourself will not help you or your W in your reconciliation efforts. Both of you should get as much information and undestanding so you can together tackle the difficult task of overcoming this affair, leaving it behind and rebuilding a R based on trust.
Good luck!
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D
