I have those same feelings. I struggle with it often. This stuff [censored], and thats a nice way of saying it. I have to get busy doing something or find something to occupy my mind. It's tough, and I'm not sure if I can do it. Luckily, I've explained mlc to my brother and when I'm down he's there to push me forward. We are very competitive by nature and he reminds me that we don't quit; never have, never will.
I know my W. She is the greatest girl I've ever met. We have two great boys together. We had what every other couple wants. I refuse to give up on her when she's hurting. I refuse to quit trying to give my boys a home that includes both their parents. What is 1,2,3 years of my life when they are just getting started with theirs. I don't want them to experience what their mother is going through when they are 40 years old. When their future W goes through this, or they do, I don't want them to quit because their dad did.
Having said all that, tomorrow, when I'm questioning all this, you can remind me why I shouldn't give up!
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later
