Wow, today H asked me what is the next phase h/we not sure, will be going through. I asked what did he mean, he said he can see the phases and this one too shall pass, so he'll just wait for the next one to see what we'll do about ea, moving out, moving in, who knows what, as he throws his hands up.

H was always a smart man, with lots of insight and he does see himself very clearly. FRom what I read the next phase is the several steps of acceptance. But, as who, as not-h, as semi H, as a$$whole, or a combination of many? That leaves, D, at the very least S, healing, new M, new R only w/out M?

I guess time will tell, I guess I'm still standing, he wants me to keep standing, why? He has said from the beginning to stand my ground! WHY? Does he know something I don't, maybe about himself?

At least I was out today and GAL with D19, and talked to outside family and friends all day! H stayed home doing chores! He can't find work right now so he's home alot, good time for me to work and leave him home alone.


The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!