I'm really getting sick of this. I fire bombed a few other threads with my bad mood and I really shouldn't have done that, apologies. I'm going to b+tch about some petty stuff and I know it's score keeping, but I just want to scream at W, "How did you turn into this insensitive, uncaring @sshole and don't even seem to notice?!?"
Ok, the kids are with me Thur to Sun, but out of school today and tomorro because of heavy snowfall. I asked W last night when she dropped them off to txt me if she gets the call that school is canceled as they don't have my cell (something I should have taken to take care of). So she txts me this morning there is no school and to please send her pics of the kids in the snow. I thought okay. A little later D15 was on her FB and I noticed all these pics of the kids going back to Halloween that were obviously taken by W but never forwarded to me, not one. The Thanksgiving parade, pics of them playing in the first snowfall a few months ago, a festival in Jan, and D15s HS Formal last Sat in the dress that I bought. I was like WTF, these were exactly the kind of pics she would share before BD. I sent her pics of the kids, my family, her parents and grandparent, at least a dozen, while back east for Xmas which she refused to attend because it would be too uncomfortable to ride in the same car for 14 hrs. She refused a plane ticket also, so whatever, the kids will not forget. I've sent her a few pics since the separation in Jan. After that I really wanted to tell her I would get right on those sledding pics and appreciate all the photos I have received since Oct. I know, petty, but was truly shocked to see all those pics for the first time.
Called her tonight to see if she wanted to watch D10 on Sat night while me, D15 and some friends go to Rocky Horror. She said of course and said that sounds like fun (without much enthusiasm). There was a bit of a pause so I asked how are you. She said, "I've been better" and did not sound good. She asked me and I said I've been better also, but I'm also having a lot of good times. It's funny how she tells everyone how happy!!! she is, but almost always looks and sounds anything but. I think she has cut herself off from more good friends (the kind that can see right through the facade and aren't afraid to say so) and is probably feeling pretty lonely. I told her how the kids helped me get the car unstuck and I think they enjoyed that more than the sledding (strange kids, but they come by it honest). She laughed a little, and said, sounding sad, that she was glad they were having fun. There was a short pause, so I said thanks for Sat and good night.
No OR talk, which was fine with me. She initiates it and it's mostly a long list of how I ruined her life. I've resolved not to have those convos anymore. Also missing was any mention of divorce. She was adamant about needing to file soon last we talked (Happy Valentines Day!). I actually haven't talked to her at all since last Fri, so I really have no idea what's going on with her and I'm trying not to care. Sorry about the rambling about nothing, I just wanted to stop venting in other folks threads. J
Me42 W41 D10,D15 T25 M23 LYBNILWY 09/12 OEA 08/12(?)-ended? 01/13 Sep 01/13 I file 04/13 1rst D hearing 06/13 Currently in mediation
