Grateful, yes. Jaded, cynical, negative.....all of the above. I really do need to work on PMA. I am actually very good at this when I am not around W. At work, I am much more like myself but when I get home and see my W, negative feelings start to creep in. I know this is not helping me, with myself or with my W. Just got to keeping working.
Do you think your W senses you having these negative feelings? If I strongly had those feelings in the presence of my W she would sense it. Are you able to "Act as if" in the presence of your wife and exude confidence and PMA?