Here's my story. Feedback is welcomed

[Jeack]

I've been married to my wife since June 4 2011. 6 months later 3 days before Thanksgiving she asked me to leave and asked for a divorce. i obliged and filed for divorce after I begged pleaded and then began the last resort technique. We reconciled right around Christmas and I moved back in sometime in February. I was just happy to be back but our issues were never resolved. Which brings me to October of 2012 once again my wife was going to leave. She said that she needed to work on herself and figure out what makes her happy and she couldn't do it while living with me because she becomes to comfortable. She has this issue where she cuts people off and doesn't feel pain or sadness.

Which now brings me to my current separation, with once again her asking for a divorce and saying she is certain this time. Everytime we separate she blames the issues on me. In 2011 it was because I drank to much, So i decided to do AA. After being clean for 7 months she said I was boring and we should go get a drink. Now this time I'm emotionally abusive. I will admit after doing reading on the topic I do have a tendancy to fit the script. I'm also passive aggressive.

My wife grew up in a very different manner than I did. Her father was killed at a very young age. And then her mother was with a very abusive man (so she says never really knew him) who neglected her and her brother to always take the mans side. After some counseling on her part before we meet and during past marriage counseling. comes to find out that her mother treats my wife as if a best friend rather than Mother some term called "covest incest"

I have 2 children from a previous marriage to which my wife was fantastic with until about the time we got married. It would get to the point where I felt like she look at my kids like they were aliens.

I bought a house for us to live in which we moved into june of 2012. The house could only go in my name due to her poor credit score. She has student loan debt in excess of 100K with out a degree or anything. Basically her entire pay check goes to paying off debt. So in a nut shell My wife never finishes anything she starts including our marriage. I have some resent the way she has treated me and my kids, But yet can never let go because i do truly love her.

She has made no talk of reconciling and only when pushed for answers wants a divorce. I'm going dark now. Told her to get own car insurance and to cancel joint account. I feel bad cause I know her financial situation but feel i should be walked over and that those extra things i paid for were perks of being married.

Just very confused why I still want to fix this marriage and if I should just file for D again and see if she actually signs the papers this time. Any advice would be great.