All h said was, where I am going to go? Not as a in a place but because this is his family, this is where he belongs and is needed. I don't have what it takes to force him out...I don't even know if I want to take it so far as to have to force him, because it then feels like I am taking it out of trusted hands. Why the hell do I have to follow my morals!

I can't win with this boundary. He gets to have his ea, his excuses, and I guess when business picks up and he's stuck in the city, his drop by place. His convictions that this is his family out of one side of his mouth, and he will risk his family to do what he has to do out the other side, is a battle I don't know how to fight.

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!