Still confused...about everything.

[BRNR]

I think everyone here can understand the feeling of wanting to be happy - of making SOMETHING happen because of being tired of being stuck. I absolutely get that. Shoot, I wrestle with that every day. Every day.

Yep, that is exactly how I feel.

If your H is in MLC, you have just asked that he help you through your illness and he has agreed. By your own admission, you need him to step up to the plate. Would giving him that goodbye letter be a good idea right now?

Absolutely NOT would be a good idea. What was I thinking....whew, I didn't think about that at all.

When the drama is over, you can re-evaluate.

Sounds good.

As I explained in my prior post, I think I got sucked back into H's drama because we are spending time together and communciating.

I think if I can just stop back a little and give myself some space and time, I can get over these overwhelming emotions...(wanting him, not wanting him, stress, health issues, worry - to name a few)...I have way to much going on with me that I need to give myself some breathing room to process.