Still Confused Beyond Belief...part 2

[Tallula]

You are dealing with 2 very selfish people who can't/won't grasp the damage they have/are causing. This pain is unimaginable. But it won't feel like this forever. That's what I kept/keep telling myself. Just feel it, keeping going. This is so new. Also, now this "secret" is out in the open more. The neighbors have to know, and that will maje this way less appealing eventually. The odds aren't in favor of this R, but I would think it has to be even less given the proximity & sitch.

I had a very active Social life before, so for me the main things I've added has been working on me. My 180s, reading books. I'm reading the 5LL & The Power of Now currently. I journal twice a day, pray & meditate twice a day, really spend time on me. What I want, what things in myself I want to change. That's a big change for me. Ive spent the last 4 years focused on everyone but me.