Looking for a little advice and support

[cbtdad]

Thanks for responding guys. I've been out of touch for a few days. I was on a Jesuit silent retreat. 3 days of meditation and prayer. Wow, what am experience it was. AS, I talked to a priest the first night I was there about what was going on in my life and why I was seeking a better relationship with Christ. He gave me a copy of the 5 love languages. Lol
Told me to read it while I was there. I read it that night and couldn't put it down. It explains our "growing apart" so much like you said. We weren't communicating our languages at all. So I tanks definitely became empty.
Anyways a little update. Turns out she didnt call our son all weekend because she had an awful weekend at the horse show. Her horse has become lame and he literally was taken to the medics for hyperventilating Saturday night.
I learned of this Sunday night as she broke down in my arms balling before I began packing for my retreat at my apartment. It was funny, because he was standing outside my door like she wanted me to say something, but wouldn't open up. Te second time I asked, she walked into my room and broke down. Anyways, it just reminded me that there are still emotions there.
While I was on my retreat I wrote her a letter. This letter was all about telling her I understand her pain and how hurt she is. And I just asked for her forgiveness. No apologies or talking about me changing. Those would have been all broken promises she has heard before. I haven't giving it to her yet and I'm not sure when I am.
So today when I dropped out son off after I got back to town I told her I needed to have a conversation about our son. Which is true. I'm not trying to just get in front of her. I told her I would like to have that conversation after our son ones down so we are not interrupted. She then said yes that sounds good and she has a lot she wants to discuss as well. So that's where we are now.
I'll let y'all know how that goes tonight.